Dear Me,

Sometimes I miss you.

The way you were,

The days spent with you,

The simple boy who knew nothing about evil.

The one who saw the world in a country yard and a simple kind family.

Who cried a day it broke his parents' hearts,

I was worried Dad was late,

Who missed his sisters,

Who wanted to go for a walk with a close friend

And laugh as much as possible.

Sometimes I think I left you things I don’t have with me any more:

Simplicity, Honesty and Kindness,

You know I left them behind to catch a mask

Instead, so that could hide me.

I miss you little ME;

When you think if anything in the world happens

I only run with my books!

I miss those days I didn’t own anything!

I miss you when you always thought there was a whole separate road for my dreams

When you think you are always under the spotlight just the way you are.

I miss you when you ran in the fields and caressed every animal!

When your world was only feelings, not materials.

I miss you

When I saw you couldn’t lie to Mom and Dad who always wanted to be with them.

I miss that optimist dream seeker, fun-looking ME,

I miss those nights when you look at the sky

And told all your dreams and you believe,

That they will be granted.

I miss that ME who was excited about a milk tea that mom made her!

I miss the creative ME with little hands that made crafts with pieces of papers

Little ME; somehow I am distanced from you,

But I tried my very best to be close to you as always during time travel!

I left out the mask behind I try to be proud of who I am like you were!

I try to keep unconditional love for everything and the people I love!

I want to make my mom and dad feel they are the luckiest parents ever like you!

I want to be happy just the way I was,

And make big days with small hands like yours!

Dear ME unfortunately there is no ticket for you,

And like a trap, I left you one day,

Never knowing I couldn’t come back any more!

But, who can forget?

I want to make my seed with strong roots and heavy branches!

I look back at those days and I know,

You shouldn’t always be aged to teach something to people!

You taught me things I’ll seek whenever I’m at my worst.

Dear ME:

Sorry for hurrying to leave you!

Here everything‘s different!

My room looks small here, though it is big.

Our artificial money here can’t buy anything!

Her kindness isn’t always two-sided,

Here happy endings are maybe a good matter of chance!

But I don’t want to be convinced that happy endings don’t exist.

I still remember those days ME,

When you and I went under the rain with toys,

And we said it could heal us because it’s from God!

I still try to communicate with God like you,

I try to talk to him and ask him to help me.

I am sorry ME, I can’t promise you to have big dreams again,

I’m more realistic, here made me like this!

Here holes in trees don’t lead to a fantasy world!

Here holes lead to Blackholes!

ME; Love here is quite different from what we had!

Love is analyzed here and is conditional!

Dear ME,

I still need the pixie dust you had in your pencils,

And you thought they were magic sticks.

I am regretting not seeing you anymore,

I lost a lot, but I am grateful for having you as a memory!

I want you to send me out and vibes to help me become closer to you again.

PS: I always miss you, you look so far!

PPS: Don’t worry, you don’t lose anything here!