Brain : Now playing . . . 1000 Unnecessary Thoughts

Dear Overthinking,

I do not know how we got here. Somehow along the way, you convinced me that you were just “caution” in disguise, my little safety net, my invisible advisor. And I used to believe you. Why? I thought you were protecting me from making reckless life choices, ensuring I never stepped into the unknown without a map. Even regarding this letter, I have thought about it again and again. I literally held an imaginary courtroom debate about it. The verdict, Sweetie? You have overstayed your welcome please!

I see the way you whisper the worst-case scenarios in my ear at 2 AM, the way you turn simple decisions into a battlefield in my mind. You make me second-guess everything that I thought I may be developing anxiety—an abomination! I wanted to further my education, earn my degree and get that dream job. Although we both knew we do not have an easy life, I now feel that the risk was worth it. However, you pushed me far away from doing what I felt was right.

But . . . I must be thankful to you, Dear, for you have guided me till date. You have forced me to think, to analyse and to choose wisely therefore I know my values now, my goals too. For that, I owe you so much gratitude. But gratitude is not love, my dear, and I cannot keep hiding under your shadow.

So, I am letting go. Slowly, hesitantly—yes, I know you will have a lot to say and I will not listen this time around. I plead with you to only guide me but not bring fear and doubt and anxiety into my life, telling me all the “what ifs”. Please I am setting boundaries now and I hope you understand.

Goodbye, Overthinking. From now, I am a mentally exhausted but recovering overthinker. Please do not overthink this. Until then, I bid you adieu!

Sincerely,

Someone who's choosing to breathe instead.

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